Tuesday, May 05, 2009

First Transmission

Shuffle the papers and stare at the screen. In your office. In his office. At his desk. Shuffle and stare. Again and again. They are outside. The bastards and bullshitters. The bastards and the bullshitters who got you here. Here, here in his fucking office. They loved him. They hate you. Not for what you do. They hate you for what you are. For who you are. For where you come from. They hate you and they want to destroy you. The men who hold the strings. You can’t sweet talk them. You can’t wine them and dine them. Not like he did. Not now. Not anymore. Maybe, you never could. Maybe, they did it for him. Indulged you. Indulged you for his benefit. And those bastards. The bastards and the bullshitters. Whispering in your ear. Telling you to go for it. Telling you he’s weak. With his crusades. His crusades and his lies. No one wants the job. Not now. No one here. Everybody knows it’s over. They can’t even mount a whispering campaign. There’s no one left. There’s no energy left.

Fuck them. Fuck them all. The bastards and the bullshitters. The bastards and the bullshitters, walking you to the chopping the block, walking you to the knackers yard. You’re still in charge though. Still running the ship. Leading the crew. The captain. The captain going down with the ship. So noble. So fucking noble. Captain of the HMS Titanic. Going down with his ship. The ship you built. The ship we built. Not them. Not the bastards and the bullshitters. Not them. Not them with their youtubes and their blogs. Fuck them. Bad advice, bad advice. But you listened. You listened to them. The bastards and the bullshitters. They said smile. Smile. Smile. Smile. And you did. You smiled. You smiled and shook hands. You believed them. Them with their youtubes and their blogs. You smiled. You smiled and the world laughed. Laughed at you. Mocked you. The bastards and the bullshitters. Their smears and their schemes. Their lies. Lies, lies, lies. His lies got you here. You used his lies. Turned them against him. Now what. You never lied. You accepted responsibility. You always did. You always will. Shuffle the papers and stare at the screen. Shuffle the papers and stare at the screen. Fuck them. Fuck them all. The bastards and the bullshitters. Fuck them.

You shuffle the papers for a final time. You stand up. Fuck them. Fuck them all. You will go down with this ship. You will take them with you. You never lied. You accepted responsibility. You. The captain of this ship. You will go down with your ship. You will take the responsibility. You will take his responsibility. You always did. You always will.

Warren Peas has written for magazines you have read. He came up with the name for this blog. It was as a joke so don’t hate him for it.

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